Merry Christmas

 Pablo the Mad Tiger Warrior wishes you and your loved ones a Merry Christmas

(note: merch with the above images (and more) are available on RedBubble at https://www.redbubble.com/people/madtigerwarrior/explore

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And today celebrates Jesus Christ, the man who was sent by God on a "suicide mission" to help heal the people and get them to follow God's light. Jesus sacrificed his life for the truth  and was killed by those who can't stand the truth!

And I feel like I was sent to Earth by God for a purpose. To sacrifice myself to expose the truth to the world

At first, I thought I was going to do that by being a media mogul with a record label, TV/radio show, the works.

None of that worked out that way!  I didn't get the status of a major executive producer. At 43, all I have is my blog and instrumental tracks! And a tiny bank account. I sometimes I feel that I failed as an adult to gain a higher status in life.

But I feel that God has sent me here to go on various "suicide missions" disguised as "opportunities" to expose rotten people in various institutions! Whether it was educational programs, jobs, internships, or even clinical settings, if I find psychologically dangerous people, I can't be silent about it. God wants me to publicly expose it on my blog, my YouTube channel and spread the word on social media.

And what do I get out of it? Not money, in fact, I lose a lot of money in the process. 

Sometimes, I have found an opportunity that I thought would be "The One" which turns out to be filled with corrupt, psychologically dangerous people, and I end up being the one who exposes it all. And if I have to start from scratch all over again. 

While the phrase "silence is violence" can sound overly self-righteous, I feel like I'm doing the world a major disservice if I'm silent about corrupt, psychologically dangerous people I come across in real life. Lowlife scum thrives with the silence of others! While I can't be too harsh on those who remain silent, I'll be the one who sacrifices myself so that those who are exposed won't be able to hurt others anymore.

Sometimes, I wish God would just give me the money without all the drama. Why I gotta be the one doing these "suicide missions" of exposing psychologically dangerous people hidden within the various institutions I come across? Why should I be doing all the work in exposing people within institutions? Why can't other people pick up the slack, so I can just relax and chill for once?  But if it's got to be me, then I guess it is. 

Don't get me wrong, I have had opportunities to work with great people and I appreciate them all! My current employers are great (hope they stay that way) but it's all just temp/on-call work without sick leave or vacation pay. 

But even if my current employer is great to me, I end up coming across other people in non-employment situations that need to be publicly exposed.

In fact, in my previous post, I wrote about a devil's disciple disguised as a mental health professional (Dr. Mark ScottVerschell). He tells me that I shouldn't be quitting those negative workplaces I left, that I should stick with those employers to gain seniority and gain money and status. See, this is the Devil trying to play games with me, telling me to "go along to get along" with truly shady people! 

Don't be surprised if Dr Mark Verschell used his position as a mental health professional to discourage people from exposing sexual harassment, racism, and unsafe practices in the workplace.  Dr Mark Scott Verschell is truly the devil's disciple. 

Well, I guess that was a "suicide mission" that was disguised as a mental health healing opportunity that turned out to be another psychologically dangerous person to be publicly exposed.

I mentioned this on a community social media outlet "NextDoor" and someone told me "You are not doing yourself any favors by posting these things. For all you know, your employer is reading them." This is Not about doing myself any favors, it's about doing the world a favor by exposing psychologically dangerous people, and if I have to sacrifice myself, then so be it!

Plus, my employer can read whatever they want. You can't live your whole life living in fear of what your employer might read! Your employer doesn't make the final call on whether you go into heaven or hell! Think about that!

But yeah, I really hope that in 2024, I will just get a great opportunity without all the drama. I would LOVE to take a break from these "suicide missions" and have other people pick up the slack for once. Or better yet, I just win money from Publisher's Clearing House, use it to finally become a media mogul, and have a bigger platform to spread the words of truth without having to be the one doing those "suicide missions".

But I also have to mention that my struggles, as frustrating as they are, are simply First World Problems compared to the ones facing journalists in war zones around the world exposing massive human rights abuse. I have it easy in comparison.

Merry Christmas

beware of psychologist Dr. Mark Scott Verschell

 Earlier this year, I posted a blog about mental health as it relates to career development.

https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2023/03/my-mental-health-career-development.html

For a while, I had therapy sessions with Dr Amerson. It first, it seems like it would be a great partnership. We not only talked about career development but other life issues as well. But after 9 months, he kept asking me the same questions (we're talking about open-ended questions that require long explanations) about things we discussed multiple times already. It's as if I was talking to the air.

So I contacted an insurer about seeing another therapist for a second opinion.

I was referred to Dr. Mark Scott Verschell. He calls his private practice "A Heathful Psychology".

Remember, it took 9 months for me to decide Dr. Amerson wasn't the right person for me.

I took only ONE DAY to decide Dr. Verschell is much worse than the previous therapist.  That his tactics are the opposite of "A Healthful Psychology"

You want to talk about first impressions?

Even the negative workplaces I experienced didn't have anywhere near the bad 1st impression I got from Dr Mark Scott Verschell.

Here's what I wrote to Verschell after the first session! 

From: Pablo Wegesend

To:  Dr Verschell

 

Thanks for attempting to work with me.

However, based on our initial interaction, I can conclude that your communication style does not work with me and it’s best that I not waste any more time.

It took me 9 months to conclude that the previous therapist wasn’t the right fit.

For you, I already concluded that on the first day.

Your questions like “can you change your employers?”  sounds like you are talking down to me, and I don’t need that from a therapist. Questions like that totally misses the point of why I seek mental health services.

 

So this is a final goodbye. My next scheduled appointment is cancelled.

I will not read any future responses from you, and all emails from you will be left unread.

 

Mahalo,

Pablo Wegesend

 

 Even though I just said "I will not read any future responses from you", I just sent this email to him on 12/24/2023 (the day after this blog post was originally posted)  basically starting with I will open those emails. I'm showing that I'm open to reflection if he's open to reflection! 

I previously said I would delete email responses from you. You know what? I changed my mind, I will open those emails. (you can send them unencrypted) 

I had great therapists in the past like Dr. Williams, (who I saw back in the early 2000's and only stopped due to change in insurance) and Dr. Russ (who I saw when I was at UHM back in 2014, and could only be of service when enrolled). They talked with me, not down to me. They showed empathy with me! They acknowledged my pain! They would NEVER scold me to refusing to endure psychological abuse at toxic workplaces! It's not like they always agreed with me, but they always showed compassion and empathy  I expected you to be more like them!

Even my previous therapist (Dr. Amerson) while he wasn't ideal, he at least showed some level of empathy for my struggles with career development. While I thought at the end that his approach wasn't right for me, he still approached my issues with MUCH MORE HUMANITY than you did! 

Just from the initial session, I got an extremely negative first impression of you!

Even the negative workplaces of the past have NOWHERE NEAR the negative first impression that I got from you!  

I came to you for help because I have traumatic experiences with workplaces, and you decided it was a good idea to talk down to me like “you think you can change your employers mindset?” Really? 

Did you REALLY think I didn't know I can't change employer's minds?. REALLY?   

OF COURSE I KNOW THAT!

You're extremely severely ultra-mega missing the point of why I seeked help!

My request for help HAS NOTHING to do with wanting to  change employer’s mindset, yet you talked down to me as if I did! 

 

You asking me the question  "you think you can change your employers mindset?" is a very combative style of communication!  It was totally uncalled for! You're EXTREMELY missing the point of why I seeked help!

The reason I sound a bit combative because I went down to your level!  Correction: While I went below the ideal level, I  still didn't even go anywhere near your extremely low level! 

 I have depression because of psychological abuse from past workplaces and yet expect me to stick with psychological abusive workplaces for a long time? Really? What kind of therapist are you? That's not "A Healthful Psychology"!

A real therapist would approach it like "let's check if that person has depression" (I would've told you "yes" if you asked)

 or "let's ask about what physical and psychological effects he endured from those workplaces" (if you asked, I would've TOLD YOU that my body was shaking and my heartbeat increased and I became paranoid about getting a heart attack, and that I have consulted a doctor about my heart, though they found nothing) WHY DIDN'T YOU ASK about that?

Or you could've started with "thanks for sharing your experience, let me share you mine" WHY DIDN'T YOU START WITH THAT?

Why didn't you ask me about past workplaces where I thrived? I would've told you great stories of great supervisors IF YOU ASKED ME! 

Why did you resort to scolding me for not remaining in psychologically toxic workplaces! That's not "A Healthful Psychology!" 

Only a toxic person would encourage people to endure toxic work environments. Real supportive people would encourage people to find productive ways to stand up for oneself and encourage people to find greater environments. My previous therapists did that!  You didn't do that! 

I am experiencing severe psychological harm because of you telling me to remain in toxic workplaces. You basically ruined my Christmas weekend because of your insensitive style of communication! 

An apology from you would be nice. I'm open to an apology.  Maybe you have spent the last 24+ hours thinking about where you went wrong with me.  Maybe in the last 24+ hours, you have thought "Dammit, I screwed up, I should've approach Pablo's issues in a different way".. Or "I didn't know I come across that way when speaking that way with him, I would do better next time"  I can respect that! We all make mistakes and I'm willing to give you a benefit of the doubt. I'm willing to give you a benefit of doubt and I will be receptive if you acknowledge the psychologically harmful ways you have responded to me. 

But if you reply in an unapologetic tone, I will respond back at your level of communication and I will mention about it on my blog and on social media.   If there's anything I'm skilled at, it's social media battles. 

In fact, I already mentioned about you in my blog

http://tinyurl.com/y9apmpjs (this already got more clicks some older posts, and it been  up for less than 24 hours as of now) 

I will also notify Kaiser Permanente about this so they can re-evaluate whether to continue referring their members to you. 

You choose how you want to respond! 

But yes, have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!  

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Mark Scott Verschell
Psychologist, PsyD

He starts off initial session by talking down to patients
He talks down to patients dealing with depression over dealing with negative workplaces
He thinks people should remain in psychologically harmful workplaces
He doesn't want to explore the trauma caused by negative workplaces
He shows ZERO empathy with patients with trauma over negative workplaces.
And to add insult to injury, he gives a negative first impression that I didn't even get from negative workplaces.

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(PS: I really hate doing this so close to Christmas, but psychologically dangerous people like Dr. Mark Scott Verschell take advantage of the excessive generosity that silence provides. Anything less than public humiliation shows excessive generosity to him. Silence only gives scum like him a green light to commit more psychological harm) 

PS #2: Don't be surprised if Dr Mark Verschell used his position as a mental health professional to discourage people from exposing sexual harassment, racism, and unsafe practices in the workplace.  Dr Mark Scott Verschell is truly the devil's disciple. 

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(and yes, another PS: the phrase "negative workplaces" in this post DOES NOT refer to my current job (where I have great relations with other staff, though it's basically an on-call job that doesn't come with sick leave or vacation pay, so I'm looking for further career development) but instead refers to past workplaces that were really negative (ie. various retail shops (link 1 and link 2), a school library, Dept of Health and other places I already detailed in past blog posts)

some thoughts on Israel/ Palestine

 Being that the Israel/Palestine crisis has so many complexities that I don't have time to write a comprehensive essay, I'll just post the most concise thoughts at this time. For those who want to scream "what about this and what about that?", I only post in my limited free time.

Many of the overseas protesters have a limited view of the Israel/Palestine based on sources that confirm their narrative.

Many allegedly "woke" protesters seem to think Israel is one big "red state on steroids". Yes, there are some people (and communities) that fit that stereotype.

But Israel (like most countries) has areas that are more conservative and areas that are more liberal.

Much of the kibbutzes/villages/etc that were attacked by Hamas were liberal pacifist communities. Same with the festival that was attacked

Hamas KNEW THIS and attacked them because they were easy targets that were less likely to fight back.

Notice they didn't attack the more right-wing settler communities (which are truly more Islamophobic) because they're more likely to be armed and ready to shoot back.

Also notice that Hamas attacked on a holiday, when people are more likely to let their guards down.

In other words, Hamas are cowards.  

Hamas also KNEW that the allegedly "woke" leftists overseas are ignorant about the many liberal pacifist communities in Israel.

Israel intelligence agencies KNEW Hamas was ready & willing to launch a massive attack from Gaza.  Bibi Netanyahu KNEW this but didn't add more security near Gaza.

Why? Because I think Netanyahu WANTED the attacks to happen. He wanted the liberal pacifist villages/kibbutzes/festivals to be attacked to scare the rest of Israel into rallying around the leader (which be him) and also because he and his fellow right-wing nutcases wanted war with Palestine.

Netanyahu (like Trump) aren't overwhelmingly popular in their countries, they only win elections by small margins against a disorganized opposition. 

The opposition to Netanyahu in Israel was just starting the be more organized with massive protests in the streets.

How did Netanyahu respond? By having lax security near Gaza when he knew Hamas was planning an attack. 

In other words, Netanyahu was willing to allow other Jews to die, so that a now heavily traumatized nation will rally around him.  

And it will allow Netanyahu to do what his supporters wanted him to do, which was to start a massive war on Palestine.  

And when the bombs started dropping on Gaza (a small crowded area), it would definitely put civilians in danger. To add insult to injury, Netanyahu blocked humanitarian aid to Gaza.  For this, there is massive backlash against Israel

Meanwhile, the governments of Egypt and Jordan aren't even allowing Palestinian refugees to seek refuge there. They are just as complicit as Netanyahu in harming the Palestinian people. 

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As for overseas observers, while most liberals are horrified by both Netanyahu and Hamas, there is a disturbing trend on the Radical Left to make excuses for Hamas (and minimize their atrocities).

Hamas is not a progressive organization, they are ultra-conservative nutcases that want to replace Israeli oppression with Palestinian oppression.

But they fit the leftist narrative of "oppressed vs oppressors" nevermind that MUCH OF HISTORY includes revolutions that replaced one oppression with another.

The Palestinians were given their own state in Gaza in 2005, for them to do whatever they want. Hamas didn't even win a majority of the votes in 2006, they only got like 44% of the vote, but they won more votes than others. But they decided "We won this election, no more elections". So a whole generation came up and didn't get a chance to vote on whether they wanted the Hamas to continue being in power. 

Hamas could've used their chance to make Gaza a shining example to the world, to make Gaza into a prosperous place like Dubai. Instead, they used Gaza to launch more attacks on Israel. Hamas has no interest in making Gaza prosperous, they're only interested in taking all of Israel/Palestine "from the river to the sea" and starting a new Holocaust/pogrom on the remaining Jews left. 

But dummies overseas don't understand that Gaza was given a chance for a peaceful independence but Hamas decided otherwise.

Overseas dummies also think that Israel is a "white settler colony". While much of Western education focused on Israel as a refuge for Holocaust survivors, they left out the fact that MOST Israelis are descendants of Jewish refugees escaping persecution from Muslim-majority countries. But because most Jews in the USA are descendants of European Jews, people in the USA tend to think of Jews as "white". But the Europeans never thought of Jews as "white" and the Jews coming from the Middle East and Africa would never be seen as "white" by people who are asked "what race is that person?"

Even though I'm thousands of miles away from Israel/Palestine, and there are very few Jews or Arabs where I'm at, the few Israelis & Palestinians I did meet in real life look so much alike when they're not wearing their traditional gear. In fact, I remember subbing at one school and this one girl who identified as Palestinian looked so much like another girl from another school who identified as Jewish.

Israel/Palestine is less about "whites oppressing brown indigenous" and is more like Japan occupying Korea in the early 1900s or like the tribal rivalries turned deadly in places like Ethiopia and Rwanda. Most people from far away can't even tell those people apart but the people there can.

Hamas wasn't nice to the Asian & African migrant workers on the Israeli kibbutzes they attacked.

But allegedly "woke" dummies claim they're all about "#BlackLivesMatter" and "#StopAsian Hate"? Nonsense!

(also notice that the allegedly "woke" dummies claim to be intersectional feminists who scream "Silence is Violence", but they are silent about the misogynist violence  Hamas inflicted in their attack on Israeli villages/kibbutzes/festivals/etc. ) 

But allegedly "woke" dummies still wanted to claim the Israel/Palestinian crisis as "white Europeans vs brown indigenous" when Jews were there before the Arabs moved in. Israel/Palestine were ruled by so many outside entities (including but not limited to the Romans, Arabs, Turks, British, etc) that much of the population has mixed over the millennia

And yes some Jews who migrated to Europe mixed with the Europeans (which was why you see some really white Jews with blond hair and blue eyes). But doesn't erase the fact that those Jews also have DNA that is common among Middle Eastern people.

Let's put it this way: Jason Momoa is indigenous to Hawaii even though he has white skin and grew up in mostly "white" Iowa. But his Native Hawaiian ancestry is legit. 

The same is true for European Jews who moved to Israel, they are returning to their ancestral home, the same way Jason Momoa is returning to his ancestral home when he comes to Hawaii. 

For them, moving to Israel was returning home, like they finally found a place where they can be themselves, away from the historical persecution they faced in Germany, Poland, Russia, etc.

But the problem was some Jewish fanatics wanted Israel/Palestine all to themselves and inflicted terror on the Palestinian Arab population. his happened on a massive scale in 1948, and what was called "the Nakba". 

This is sort of like how the Europeans inflicted terror on Native Americans to move them out. But many European immigrants who came later (like the late 1800s, early 1900s) had NOTHING to do with the genocide of Native Americans, they just wanted to move to a place of opportunity. Same with the Latin Americans, Asians, and Middle Eastern immigrants who also came to the USA later in history.

Many of those who migrated to Israel post-1948 had nothing to do with the Nakba, just like those who migrated to the USA now had nothing to do with the genocide and slavery that had happened earlier. 

In the 1960s, the Palestinian Liberation Organization (PLO) started a violent resistance to Israeli oppression of the Palestinians. They launched attacks on Israeli civilians in schools, buses, planes and much more. Their allies murdered Israeli Olympic athletes in Munich in 1972.

By the early 1990s, there was the Oslo peace treaty between Israel and the PLO. And there was the famous handshake between PLO leader Yassir Arafat and Israel Prime Minister Yitzhak Rabin with then US president Bill Clinton in the background. 

There was optimism in the air.

But some people didn't want peace.

Right-wing Israelis still wanted their version of "river to the sea" with all of Israel/Palestine under their control. One of them committed a mass shooting of Palestinian civilians in Hebron. Another assassinated Rabin for "being a traitor"

Meanwhile, Hamas also didn't want peace. They launched suicide/homicide bombings on Israeli cafes, parties, buses, you name it.

And with that, the dream of peace was dead!

Bibi Netanyahu took advantage of the crisis and won elections as Israeli Prime Minister.  He never had an overwhelming majority, but the opposition just didn't have enough support. 

It wasn't enough for Hamas to have Gaza. They wanted it all, "from the river to the sea".  It wasn't enough for the Israeli right-wing nutcases to just have a few settlements in West Bank, they wanted it all "from the river to the sea".

And viewing this all from thousands of miles away, it is heartbreaking  

Just recently, I was subbing at a Christian school and the students were watching a short animated video about the birth of Jesus. In that video was the message "Peace on Earth". And yet, in the part of the world, two-thousand years later, there is no peace. 😢

 

Living a few hours without my smartphone

On Thanksgiving, I went to my parent's house. After leaving and coming back to my apartment, I realized that I left my cell phone at their house.

My apartment doesn't have a landline. I do have an extra cell (a flip-phone) but the SIM Card that connects the phone to the network was in my smartphone at my parent's house.

Lucky for me, I had a desktop computer where I could 

• log-in to my Google account to "Find My Device" (this is for Android phones)
• email my mom after noting the "Find My Device" located my phone is my parent's neighborhood.

The following day, I got my phone returned! 

If this happened 15 years ago, I would be out of luck. Back then, I didn't have a desktop computer at home (I had to use the libraries to do internet things) and I didn't have a landline or an extra phone. 

There are fewer pay-phones in the public now, and most of the ones that remain are vandalized. Plus, I don't feel comfortable speaking into a public device that attracts a lot of germs from users with poor hygiene. 

I'm also grateful my phone was with someone I trust.

Some people have to deal with the nightmare situation of losing their phones in public places and never seeing it again.

One piece of advice: Put a label with your name on the back of your cell phones.

I remember hearing that advice at a school office when I heard 2 staff members saying "we tell the kids to put their names on their items, but we don't even put our names on our cell phones"

Being that smartphones are expensive, it's definitely a good idea to place a label with your name on it, so in case you lose it and someone finds it, they'll have an idea of who to return it to. 

Riding the Rail that I Opposed

 Earlier this year, they finally opened part of Oahu's rail system. After decades of delays.

While it's officially called SkyLine, everyone here just calls it TheRail! 

On Thanksgiving morning, I finally got the chance to ride TheRail. 

I felt like a tourist. Even though I lived on this island my entire life!

While I initially opposed the building of TheRail, I ended up riding it. Yeah, I know, it sounds hypocritical.  I know I'm not the only one. 

Here's a blog post from 2004 opposing the building of TheRail 

(https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2004/03/my-1st-hawaii-reporter-editorial-you.html)

Part of why I opposed the building of the rail was the use of eminent domain to confiscate property to make way for the rail.

I posed a question about it to the local papers back in 2006

Who will be forced to move for rail?

With all the talk about light rail, there is one question that needs to be answered: Who's going to be forced out of the way to make room for light rail infrastructure?

Pablo Wegesend
Honolulu

 

I also addressed such concerns in 2008

https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2008/06/light-rail-and-property-confiscation.html

Property issue should have been addressed


Last Sunday's article on the possibility of people's property being confiscated to make room for the rail project addressed an issue that should have been addressed long before the City Council voted to approve rail.

I have previously written letters, as have others, warning about the possibility of people being forced off their land to make room for the light rail. I also wrote letters to the mayor and my City Council representative on this issue.

However, we have been ignored by nearly everyone.

I'm not against the idea of a rail system. I am against the idea of people's property being confiscated to make way for light rail (or any other project), and it's a shame very few have addressed this issue.

Pablo Wegesend

Honolulu

Guess what?

The issue came up again earlier this year and the city & county government is expanding the rail system into Kalihi, and now the government is threatening to confiscate land without consent to make way for the rail

from the Honolulu Star-Advertiser 11/17/2023 article (at https://archive.is/LcF8p )

The Honolulu Authority for Rapid Transportation’s board of directors Thursday approved filing an eminent domain against one family’s industrially zoned property in Kalihi.

The rail agency’s planned condemnation of property at 1829 Dillingham Blvd. also will force a nearly 60-year-old business to relocate.

and

In that year, HART said it presented an acquisition offer to the property’s named owner — Jennine Hatsue Takara — for the parcel’s full acquisition.

That offer, however, was rejected.

Over the years, the agency said it attempted several times to negotiate terms with the owner toward the property’s acquisition but to no avail.

By May, HART sent a notice to the City Council regarding its intentions to formally condemn the Takara family’s Dillingham Boulevard property, despite its owners’ objections.

In other words "take my offer or else" 

It's the Suge Knight way of doing business. No it's worse than that, because the government has more enforcers with more weapons than Suge Knight! 

My Friend Stuart Hayashi wrote a letter to the newspaper earlier this month 

HART’s Eminent Domain Is Brutal Use of Authority

The front-page story, “HART Board Approves Eminent Domain Filing for Kalihi Property” (Star-Advertiser, Nov. 17), shows HART has no heart.

The Honolulu Authority for Rapid Transportation (HART) invoked eminent domain to dispossess the Takara family of land on which their family business has stood for 59 years. Rationalizations for eminent domain always mention payment to the victims. That downplays the real issue: freedom and consent versus coercion. Eminent domain is ultimately backed by armed force. Enforcing it in Los Angeles in 1959 had armed officers literally drag a widow, Aurora Arechiga, from her home.

People assume cities need eminent domain. In January, I emailed development officials of Carson City, Nev., about this. They informed me that although the city can enact it, at the time they knew of no instance of Carson City actually exercising eminent domain in its history.

During these holidays, ponder whether slogans about “the greater good” are justification enough, and if passively condoning eminent domain’s brutality is what we truly want.

Stuart K. Hayashi

Stuart Hayashi expands on this more in his blog post "Eminent Domain is Inhumane" at                                                             

https://stu-topia.blogspot.com/2023/11/eminent-domain-is-inhumane.html 

A brief reflection on old blog posts

It seems like an eternity since I posted the blog post commemorating the 2-decade anniversary of this blog!

https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2023/10/2-decades-of-blogging-1-decade-on.html

Being that it's been a month since I last posted, it kinda give a vibe that the anniversary post was going to be my last one. Luckily, it's not! 

Recently, I did look over some of the old blog posts. 

Some of them I read now and I ask myself "did I really need to express those thoughts so aggressively?"

Some of them mentioned public figures that were well-known then, but have since been forgotten by the general public (ie John Kerry, Howard Dean, Mike Huckabee,  Bill O'Reilly, Jeremiah Wright, etc)

While some issues mentioned back then are now in the rear-view mirror for most Americans (ie the US-Iraq war), some of the issues are still major topics of the day (ie Israel-Palestine conflict)

The great thing about being in the blogging world for 2 decades is seeing the evolution of my thoughts. Some of my perspectives and priorities changed over the years. 

Anyways, I'll be blogging until I can't do it anymore!

2 decades of blogging, 1 decade on YouTube

 I now have 2 decades of experience in blogging and 1 decade of making YouTube videos.

First, my blogging.

To learn the history behind my blogging, check out the following posts

from 2013 "1 decade anniversary of this blog"    https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2013/10/1-decade-anniversary-of-this-blog.html

Actually, I joined Blogger in April 2003 as part of a group blog called "The Fiftieth Star". That was with me, Stuart Hayashi and a few others who wanted to promote an alternative to the center-left bias of the Ka Leo, the Honolulu daily papers and the Honolulu Weekly.
http://50thstar.blogspot.com/

(yeah, I know, it hasn't been updated in a while)

At the time, I was an undergraduate student at UH-Manoa and have been writing opinion articles in the school's newspaper Ka Leo O Hawaii.

As a writer, I had a small group of fans. But I also had an enemy named Tobin Jones who wrote screaming rants in response to my articles. I don't mind rational disagreements with my points, but Tobin Jones doesn't do rational disagreements, he does vicious slanders and accusations of me believing in stuff I dont believe in. 

Well in October of 2003, Tobin Jones made another unhinged rant about another of my Ka Leo articles.  Now, this was war! 

So I started my blog. I shattered his cliches into pieces.

Eventually, that conflict faded and I used my blog to comment on a whole bunch of other topics.  

I also wrote more on my blog history in this 2018  blog post " This blog is now 15 years old" https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2018/10/this-blog-is-now-15-years-old.html

Anyways, lots of things have changed in those 15 years!

Back then,  things like YouTube, Facebook, Twitter didn't even exist yet! But now, they're the center of many news reports and basically the center of mainstream life!

Back then, the word "viral" still focused on diseases! The word now refers to anything widely shared on YouTube, facebook and twitter (as I mentioned, didn't exist yet when I started my blog).

Interestingly, 2 years after that post, the coronavirus crisis has happened, so now, the word "viral" has now focused on viruses again. 

More from that 15th-anniversary post

Also within the 15-year time-frame, my life circumstances and some opinions do change.

Back in 2003, I was 23 years old and still an undergraduate student at UH-Manoa.  This "real world" that older people talk about? What is that?

Since then, I've started working different jobs in very different work environments, with the main one being a substitute teacher (that one started in 2005). That means I had serious role model responsibilities, for which I really had to mature! Some perspectives, attitudes and behaviors had to change! 

Which was why some former classmates were shocked when I no longer had the same attitudes and opinions that I had when I was a student in high school.

So yes, you might notice that some blog posts from 2003 and the few following years will have opinions that are different from what I express in recent years.

Part of that is growth & maturity, but part of that is also the changing world around us.

And yes, I have evolved more since that 2018 post, mostly due to the coronavirus crisis that started in 2020.  

I'll just say I've become more germophobic and less likely to attend public events. 

More classic paragraphs from the 15th-anniversary post

Some people might ask "why you put so much stuff on your blog, aren't you worried about how people might react?"

What do you mean "so much stuff"?

Actually, there's so much stuff I was planning to blog about, but haven't had the time to add it to my blog!

Of course I think of how people are going to react. Everyone does! 

But you have to take risks in life! You can't satisfy everyone! 

If you're not telling your story, someone else who don't have your best interests at heart will tell the world your story from their point of view.

That's not something you want to risk in a "viral" world, where people have their 15-minutes of fame when they least expect it!

People can write what they want about me, I can still write my side of the story! 

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And now, about my 1 decade on YouTube,

My YouTube channel  is https://www.youtube.com/@pablo_wegesend 

It was October 2013 when I finally got a smartphone.

So yes, it's now a decade since I got my first smartphone, which I blogged about  at "One decade with a smartphone"   https://pablowegesend.blogspot.com/2023/10/one-decade-with-smartphone.html

So now that I have a video-recording device that can fit into my pocket, I can finally make video speeches that I can post online.

Plus, I can reach more people on YouTube than I could with just a blog. 

At the time, I still didn't have a desktop computer at home and had to go to the library to use the computer. 

Also, at the time, I just returned to UH-Manoa as a graduate student.  A contrast to when I started my blog as an undergraduate student.

At the time, the campus's Sinclair Library had computers that had an SD drive where I could upload videos I took with my smartphone and put in on YouTube.

In September 2015, I finally got my own desktop computer. That computer came with Windows Movie Maker, a video-editing app.

So if you watch my earlier videos, you notice

• they're unedited, I just upload what I recorded

and whereas if you watch the videos I posted later, you will notice

• Videos now start with a title thumbnail
• Videos now end with a "Thank you for watching" and sometimes, with credits
• I can cut out stuff from the video before I upload
• I can add captions to the videos, plus additional images

And with the desktop computer, I now have Music Maker apps, and I have become a digital musician named Pablo the Mad Tiger Warrior

So I can add my music to the start and end of my video speeches, for the purpose of cross-promotion

And with Windows Movie Maker, I can now mix still images, color effects, and my music to make my own music videos.

You can check out Pablo the Mad Tiger Warrior music videos at https://www.youtube.com/@pablothemadtigerwarrior

Window Movie Maker is great in that I can do some video editing, but it doesn't come with advanced features.

I'm so jealous that the younger generation can learn more advanced editing techniques at school.  

And also editing takes a lot of time.

It doesn't take long to record a video speech. That's the easy part. 

But the editing and uploading take up a lot of time, which is why I don't post on YouTube as much as I would like. 

Also, I like blogging better because writing is my strength, whereas speaking is more of a weakness due to a speech impediment. 

But I recognize more people would rather watch a video than read a blog.

I have friends who talked about my YouTube videos but not my blog.

I also remember when I worked as a substitute teacher, I had students come up to tell me they watched my YouTube video speeches.

I'm glad that my videos had an impact.

And I will write blogs and make videos until I'm physically unable to do so. 

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BONUS:

My 1-decade anniversary video on YouTube

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrAjRmInxIA&feature=youtu.be

"My 1-Decade anniversary on YouTube"